{"id":5246,"date":"2023-07-01T19:02:23","date_gmt":"2023-07-01T12:02:23","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/loudhdtv.com\/?p=5246"},"modified":"2023-07-01T19:02:23","modified_gmt":"2023-07-01T12:02:23","slug":"it-took-years-of-feeling-burnt-out-for-me-to-reconsider-my-goals","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/loudhdtv.com\/?p=5246","title":{"rendered":"It Took Years Of Feeling Burnt Out For Me To Reconsider My Goals"},"content":{"rendered":"<p> <script async src=\"https:\/\/pagead2.googlesyndication.com\/pagead\/js\/adsbygoogle.js?client=ca-pub-3711241968723425\"\r\n     crossorigin=\"anonymous\"><\/script><br \/>\n<br \/><img decoding=\"async\" src=\"https:\/\/mindbodygreen-res.cloudinary.com\/image\/upload\/c_crop,x_0,y_99,w_2000,h_1124\/c_fill,w_700,h_400,g_auto,q_85,fl_lossy,f_jpg\/org\/qfiivq12qlamrdvk7.jpg\" \/><\/p>\n<div>\n<p>To back up for a minute: I grew up in a South Asian American family with a super high-achieving home culture. My dad is a professor, so education has always been very important to him. There was always this sense of guilt constantly weighing on me about how my parents sacrificed everything to give me a better life. In fact, my mom got pregnant when she was in grad school, and she ended up dropping out so she could help make money to raise me.\u00a0<\/p>\n<p>With all of that in the back of my head, I ended up pursuing the &#8220;practical&#8221; fields of computer science and business. After graduating, I wound up taking a job in finance, and at a company with a super corporate, intense culture. I thought all of it was what I wanted.\u00a0<\/p>\n<p>This job ultimately led to the most <a href=\"https:\/\/www.mindbodygreen.com\/articles\/how-to-recover-from-burnout\" target=\"_blank\" class=\"mbg-track-event\" data-track-event-types=\"click\" data-track-type=\"article-link\" data-track-prop-element-id=\"in-body-link\" data-track-prop-label=\"page_type | element_id\" data-track-prop-category=\"Link\" data-track-prop-link=\"https:\/\/www.mindbodygreen.com\/articles\/how-to-recover-from-burnout\" rel=\"noopener\">traditional definition of burnout<\/a>\u2014I was working all the time, and it seriously impacted my physical health. However, this was in 2012, and no one talked about mental health or burnout culture. We didn&#8217;t even know what to label it. So I just experienced <a href=\"https:\/\/www.mindbodygreen.com\/articles\/signs-of-chronic-fatigue\" target=\"_blank\" class=\"mbg-track-event\" data-track-event-types=\"click\" data-track-type=\"article-link\" data-track-prop-element-id=\"in-body-link\" data-track-prop-label=\"page_type | element_id\" data-track-prop-category=\"Link\" data-track-prop-link=\"https:\/\/www.mindbodygreen.com\/articles\/signs-of-chronic-fatigue\" rel=\"noopener\">physiological fatigue<\/a> and exhaustion, but I didn&#8217;t know how to channel it. I remember trying to journal about what was bothering me, what I needed to get done, or what was causing my anxious feelings.\u00a0<\/p>\n<p>And whenever I would start to notice those unsettling feelings creep in (usually every six to 12 months), I would just try to cover it with a bandaid solution and move along. Sometimes, I would pivot jobs, but that didn&#8217;t necessarily fix anything. With my computer science degree, I took several positions as a software engineer, as I was conditioned to believe in building a safety net. As a result, because I was living to achieve someone else&#8217;s dreams, burnout would creep back in.<\/p>\n<p>Then, I ended up moving to San Francisco to start a new job at a company that was about to go public. I was dating a new guy (spoiler alert: my now husband). On paper, it looked like my life was pretty incredible. However, I was still waking up feeling tired, even when I wasn&#8217;t working long days. I was also constantly unhappy, cranky, and negative\u2014all the things you wouldn&#8217;t necessarily expect as a high-achieving woman whose life was checking all her own boxes.<\/p>\n<p>What I began to realize, however, was that I was chasing society&#8217;s definition of success\u2014but not my own. I was living life on autopilot rather than one that aligned with <a href=\"https:\/\/www.mindbodygreen.com\/articles\/finding-yourself\" target=\"_blank\" class=\"mbg-track-event\" data-track-event-types=\"click\" data-track-type=\"article-link\" data-track-prop-element-id=\"in-body-link\" data-track-prop-label=\"page_type | element_id\" data-track-prop-category=\"Link\" data-track-prop-link=\"https:\/\/www.mindbodygreen.com\/articles\/finding-yourself\" rel=\"noopener\">my personal core values<\/a>. It wasn&#8217;t just the amount of work that was causing my burnout; it was a lack of fulfillment in what I was doing every day, because I knew I wanted to be doing something else.\u00a0<\/p>\n<\/div>\n<div data-type=\"_mgwidget\" data-widget-id=\"1675549\">\r\n<\/div>\r\n<script>(function(w,q){w[q]=w[q]||[];w[q].push([\"_mgc.load\"])})(window,\"_mgq\");\r\n<\/script>\r\n\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>To back up for a minute: I grew up in a South Asian American family with a super high-achieving home culture. My dad is a professor, so education has always been very important to him. 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